memories with friends after graduate from secondary school

  Finally!!! I get to spend time with my friends, creating sweet memories before I go for my National Service this saturday...I spent time with my best childhood friend Elaine on a boat ride to Pulau Ketam :DD,and also with Celia, Celine, abowloffish, Pei Si and Wai Yee in our 2013 countdown steamboat party...too bad I cannot stay until the count down :( and lastly with my brothas!!!!!! xDDD Teoh, S.Ze, X.Hau and Jake in Sunway :DDD these friends is the friends that I adore until I treat them as brothers and sisters already( and I mean onii chan and onee chan), They always take care of me and support me when I was down :) oh ya dun forget last year's comic fiesta with the same group with the addition of Yuki and Mia xD and the movie with Wynn, Bryan and QiQi :)) 

  Spending so much time on having fun with my friends after SPM and when the result come out in March which is the month that I end my Nasional Service I will be suffer to death!! Dx I think I didnt done well in my exam which piss my parent alot ( which parent wouldn't?) so since the result haven't come out yet I will enjoy and have fun as much as possible xD

  Lastly, I would like to thank all the names I have mentioned, thank you for being my friends and I really glad that none of you ever left me since the day we met. I love you all <3 font="font">

Graduation Party for chinese class

the boy is Wynn that I talking about :)

bros with me cosplay as karakuri burst len kagamine

and my sis's at count down party :)

another outing with my bros :)

too bad I didnt took photo with Elaine one :,( that is also one of my fun and memorable experience with my best friend

Every Naruto fan is feeling sad right now :C

  Sad...sad... T^T Neji from Naruto is dead. *tears up* damn! I never feel anything for manga characters espeacially in Naruto except when Sasori get revived and he is the first one to die for second time *grr..* and now... Kishimoto kill off Neji again!! WHY?? WHY NEJI???? OUT OF EVERY POSSIBLE CHARACTER?????? *GRAAAAAA!!!!* When I saw the page when someone jumped in front of Hinata and Naruto...I seriously hope is not Neji instead of Hiashi Hyuga, Hinata's father but no! My heart breaks when I turned the next page!! WHY????????? Being one of my most favourite character since Naruto and Naruto Shippuden, is so heart breaking to watch them die!!! When the last chapter where Shikaku and Inoichi, Shikamaru and Ino's fathers die, I already get the feelings that somebody important going to die again but I never thought is Neji!!!!!! GAAHHHHHHH!!!!! Curse you Kishimoto!!!!! DD:

RIP Neji Hyuga :,C

Neji pictures not belongs to me

Genting trip with friends after SPM

12/12/2012
  Me and my friends finally get to go Genting Highland after SPM. We gather at Celia's house before heading to Genting at 10am. Originally got 8 people go that is me, Celia, PL, Xiao Hau, Teoh, Jun Yung, and Shang Ze... but then until the very last minute PL suddenly say she cannot go because she though that the date is 11 to 13 but actually the date change to 12 to 14 and on 14 Dec PL got something to do :( so only got 7 people go to genting... When we reach First World Hotel, we cannot check in to our room because we under age (17) so Celia's father help us to check in the room. Then because our outdoor indoor ticket only available for 13 Dec so we only stay in our room play PSP and PS2 that brought by Xiao Hau, Jun Yung and Teoh. We play play play until dinner time we go eat Bak Kut Teh...it feels good that a group of friends sitting together and eat together like family xD btw the food at there is so expensive Dx then we go play arcade, many funny things happened, especially the flip table arcade xD I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!! lol

13/12/2012
  We play UNO at room until 12.00am then go to sleep, we wake up at 7.30am. We went to eat breakfast and went to outdoor theme park. We played Go Kart and we also saw many cosplayer at there O.o Celia know some of them so she went to chat a bit with them.but them later every game also ful l of people so we decided to eat lunch first then rest at room until night time when there is lesser people in outdoor theme park. then about 6.00 pm we come down to the theme park and manage to play one or two games which I forgot. But then the fog getting thicker and started to rain so we go back to indoor park to think of something to play, Celia and I wanted to watch 4D movie but there is too much people at the queue and technical problem so we didnt get to watch it so Xiau Hao them decided to play bowling and its also the first time I play bowling ball xD. After that we went back to hotel room and decided to stay overnight because tomorrow we are going back home. Around 3.00 am Celia feeling not well and we had to cancel our overnight stay.

14/12/2012
  9.00am we wake up and pack our bag, we had to check out at 11.00 am, we went to eat breakfast and check out hotel room. 11.00 am me and Celia go home by taxi and reach by 1.00 pm :)

spent: RM 90.00

Graduation Party

December 6 is our school chinese class graduation party...All the students in our school that taking chinese language is invited to join the party. It is the first time I've dress so formal and even make up to join a party...we had a lot of fun there and some touching moment especially with our chinese teacher...they put alot of effort to maintain the chinese language class in our school and they are the best teacher I've ever seen...I dun get it why alot of chinese today dun take chinese language, its like pulling our root off and forgot who we are, its our mother language, where we come from...fine dun get off the topic too much, back to the party...its awkward when i find my male friends to take picture...especially when I take picture with Wynn, ...overall is very fun and great opportunity to spend our final time with our friends again ( not exactly final time...as we still gonna meet) thank you PL and Etst for helping me to make up and all the hardworking chinese teachers for creating this event :)

Suicide is stupid

  Today Im just talking about...suicide is stupid.

I dunno why ppl likes to suicide today, especially on very super duper tiny matter like break up, bad result, scold by parent or teacher, boring life, fight with friends... etc etc. Those are the most unforgivable and ridiculous reason for someone to suicide, those are just temperately problem that everyone needs to deal about, EVERYONE! So what makes you so special that you need to deal with this problem differently by dying while the other are capable to overcome their problem and live on a happy life, you are just a coward to run away from everything and you are a burden to everyone when you suicide and die because you left sadness and miserable life to the one you love, your family and your friends, You are just a selfish person that only think about solving your own problem in stupid way but never think of how your family and your friend feelings for your ignorant perspective of life.

Life is priceless, like time, you cannot use anything to bring back your life so why people nowadays, teens nowadays would not appreciate the gift that our parent give us? And easily hand it to grim reaper for some stupid reason. I read a book before, it said that when a people suicide, he or she will straight go to hell because they take the gift (life) from the god for granted, so god punish them by sent them to eternal hell, I strongly believe this so I also believe that suicide not does solve any of your problem but to bring yourself another big trouble!

 What I most hated is when those suiciders have siblings under them, I'm the eldest child in my family so I know that whatever you do will affect you younger brothers and sisters. Have you ever think that your act will easily influence them and lead them to repeat what you do in the past? DO YOU WANT YOUR YOUNGER BROTHER AND SISTER TO REPEAT YOUR FATE?? BY ENDING THEIR LIFE TOO??? You just make a role model for them to see how things should be handle, in stupid and idiotic way. And if you really done this, you are the most cruel big brother or big sister I have ever seen. I love my two younger brothers more than anything I wont let my mistake to become their fate, they see me with high expectation that they can learn something from me so I won't let them down by doing anything stupid as suicide.

so in conclusion, suicide or kill yourself is the most stupid and idiotic things that only a fool will do. If you are my friends that reading this, I would like to warn you all first. If any one of you who happen to die because of          suicide, I will not visit your grave, remember this.

Lighten up

9/4/12 12.55am

I'm still sitting in front of the computer, not for entertain purpose but for my spm trial exam, searching up and down for any useful material in write in my sejarah essay, feeling so stress out for the sejarah paper until half of my hair nearly gone ( I have a habit of scratching my hair really hard when I feel stress) until I read your email and blog post. I'm really happy that you finally walk out from the dark clouds and prepare to welcome the sunshine. I always worried about you. We spend some great time together last Friday and I'll never forget the happiness you and I have shared, Thank you so much for everything.

And also thanks for refreshing my mind :D Your message boost me to study and I hope I can be help of you too :)

Well, time to study again C:

Sharing with your friend is caring to your friend

  I feel so lonely sometimes...not because I don't have friends or family, is because most of my friend wont share to me, I dont like this, I'm grateful for able to share happy memories with you all in these pass 5 years or as long as we met, so I also want to help my friends to be happy too, but...it seems like i fail to do so, whenever I saw you all moody and emo, I want to know, I want to help, but you all wont split a thing, I know sometime is ur personal affair, but atleast let me know that we, as your friend didnt add up ur sadness, for example u quarrell  with your family and bring an emo face to school, you can just say :" it just family matter..." not just say :" oh its nothing" but obviously is not ok, I feel sad when you always hide everything to urself and walked away quietly...ya I know is your personality but, please dont ignore ur friend when they want to be with your, your know throughout the years when I away from home, no matter in school or anywhere, I always hope to have people to share their happiness and sadness to me, but unfortunately till now I'm still a dust to your eyes.

  One day I cried, in class, when teacher is absent and the class is left to themselves, Im sorry I lied to you all that I cried is because I read a touching book, I cried is because I was lonely, I was doing my homework that time, all alone, when I glance around the classroom, all the people, including my friends, they were talking, they were together, they were laughing, happily. Even with my friend is by my side, she were laughing too, with my friend behind me.  I felt abandoned, because the whole classroom, only me is all alone, no one invite me to join their laughter, no one wish to share with me, maybe u think I should volunteer myself to join the others, ya I thought so too, but when I think about it, everytime always me volunteer myself into a group ( when no teacher around, just chatting), like, no one invite me to join their group before, is it they initially dont want me to join but I insist to join them?? If I didnt ask, will they invite me??? I shed a tear, no one notice it.

More tears rushing out from my eyes, no one notice, even my friend beside me. I cried nearly one period until another teacher comes in, still no one came to me and ask : "what's wrong?" Then, I recall that everytime got people cried in class, their friends will beside them, patting their back, saying : its ok..." but when its my turn, no one, nothing, laughters still continue, more knifes is stabbing me. Is it I'm so worthless to your all??? My heart sink, because I finally notice that I'm just a nobody for everyone when this is the last  year I will spent with them, when I treat u all so important than my own life, that I admire so much for you all. But I feel more console, when you ask me what wrong in class during recess time, you thought I was crying because of homework, close enough...

  Maybe you  dont know, Im a very sensitive and low self confidence, I always thought that even if I dissapear from this world, no one will notice, earth will keep turning, life will keep going on, so I also treat myself not important, but, you, came in front of me, and ask " why yesterday you didnt come?" " Do you want me to wait for you?" "Here, just now we went Chatime and bought this for you." " I remember you said that...". Maybe you ady forgot, but those are very big words for me, when I think that noone will care about me, when I think I was left alone, your words which contain a little bit of concern, can easily touched me. I look emotionless outside but inside I was full of thankful and gratefulness for you that say this to me. or maybe sometime you saw I was shock and surprise by your words is because I never think anyone will say this kind of things to me.

Thank you for acknowledge my existence, thank you for being kind to me, thank you for share happiness with me, thank you for everything when I step out my home. But I hope, u can also share your sadness to me, to let me know Im not a burden to you, to give me a chance to convert sadness to happiness, to  stand by your side and support you.

Friendship is a beautiful things when someone treasure it sincerely.

p.s.The 'you' im using is refer to everyone, every friends I know