love? family? life? which is important?

Well sorry for the previous post which is so negative...sometimes i tend to get moody and think too much myself.

Just read my friends blog, everytime I read her blog I feel so sad...because her blog contain so much sadness that couldnt be told to the others, but Im so glad that she never gives up and keep moving forward...thanks to the power of god she can stand up till now and I'm also glad that god have given her the power to move on...

but Im still a buddhist though, I'm just glad that someone else had support my friend in both mentally and physical way.

I know I'm blessed with my  family and friends who is willing to help me whenever I'm in trouble, those who went to suicide or get depressed just because of love problem is plain stupid and ignorant, they are not appreciating the life that our parent gifted to us and waste it, leaves all the people who love you in sorrow, so I think people that haven't grow up( which is include teenager ( age 13 to 18) shouldnt focus on your so called "lover" so much and end up in forever loop of suffering yourself. Buddha teach us not to crave on something too much, and learn to let go the past, learn from the past...

 Haiz...maybe you all will critisize me for not understand the situation you are in as I never have a relationship with anyone before...but that is the true, dont you all agree?

Meaning of LIFE???

What is the purpose to live? Why am I allowed to live?? The world will just go on even without me, so why am I alive??? Life will just carry on even without me, so why am I alive???

I feel alone even when I’m in the middle of the peoples, nobody needs me, nobody appreciate me, nobody knows me, so why am I alive?? Every thing I do, no one will see it. Everything I say, nobody will listen. Every thing I think, nobody will understand. You think this is the small things that not worth to bother about, are actually serious things that I care a lot! I try to be strong, but actually I’m still a weakling.

Why can you do this but can’t I? Why I can fit into your conversation?? Am I a nuisance to you all???? Am I a burden to you all???? Am I just a people that randomly join you all like a busybody?????

Who say religion can ease a people’s mind? The time that I feel extremely lonely and stress is in my religion center! Just because I’m not talkative enough so I can’t join you all?? Just because I’m not following the trend like a normal teenager so I cant join you all? Just because I don’t have a sense of humor like you all so I cannot join? Just because I don’t speak English as well as you all so I cannot join you???? SO WHY AM I ALIVE????

Somebody once told me, “even if you feel sad and tends get moody all the time, the earth will not stop working as you feel sad, so why waste your time to become morose?” Ya that’s right, even when you happy or angry the earth will still keep going, so why waste your time living on earth? When you die you won’t feel sad or happy or angry anymore, the entire galaxy will always keep going on and on, so why are we were allowed to be live??

I’m confused, I’m lost, I’m…demanding an answer…

COSPLAYER

I, Lyeon/WSW has officially become a cosplayer!!! xDDDDD

last saturday at 1 Utama had held an Animax Carnival, me and my friends has attend the 1st day carnival, at first i was not thinking to cosplay any character since my kagamine len wig havent arrive yet....but at the last minute i found out tat one of my friend tat gt cos kagamine len didnt go for the animax carnival 1st day, so i decided to borrow the wig from her, and i cos camellia len since the costume so casual i can match the costume with my own clothes and some i borrrowed from my friends xD but then b4r the day we go carnival i stayed up night until 3.00am to worked for the accesaries =.= but then overall the carnival is fun and interesting!! xD 1st time to cosplay, 1st time to pretend to be a boy, 1st time to wear a wig go to an event!!!! xDDDDDDD

le me cosplay as camellia len xD photo by Razrig photography ( thanks for the photos! xDD)

photo by Razrig Photography

the vocaloid camellia group xD from left to right ( Celine, Celia, Lyeon(me), ChanPL ) all of them are great isnt it? my cosplay senpai s(seniors) xDDD

great thanks to

Celia - for providing transport

Celine- for lending me the neck tie

ChanPL- for being beautiful xD jokes but u really is a beauty ©©

Elaine- for lending me her ribbons (ur ribbons is great! trust me! xP)

Xiaao Etst- for helping me to make up ©©

Da Cheese- for helping me to make up and lend me your hair web ©©

Jenny Choo- your outfit is so cute!! xD ©©

S.Z, X.Hau, Edward, Kenji- thankx for coming :) (to Ed: if u sick u should rest at home, i nvr hoped tat anyone to fall sick juz to attend an anime event >.<)

all the photographers at the Animax Carnival- thankx for the photos! u all have great skills xDD

Divon and Gundam- you two should cosplay more!!!! xDDDDD

为什么？？

为什么？？为什么又会发生这样的事？？我还以为我摆脱了那件事的阴影，为什么会再发生？？？

我最害怕和朋友绝交！可是为什么这件事还会发生在我身上？？？虽然他说不是因我而起，不过，面对一个朋友的离开，我还是会受不了！！今天大家还谈天说笑，为什么第二天就变陌生人了？？我最受不了这样的打击！！！在几接到他的短讯的刹那，我的心又变的十分沉重，那时痛苦的感受，又回来了！我有种想哭的冲动！到底发生了什么事？？为什么好像只有我一个人傻傻地什么都不知道？？？

车上的两只雄猪

女性崛起，男生就没落了吗？感觉上现在的男生都不像男生的！空有男性的外形而已...而内在的性格呢？没主见，依赖，总是犹豫不决，胆小怕事，死板板，只会批评别人又不要用镜子照一下自己的样子，在班上演讲也会发抖！

今天总算看到了你们的死样子了！看到别人有困难只会袖手旁观，而且有困难的还是女生耶！就算长的不漂亮也看在同车的份上帮个忙吧？还以为男生都讲义气的呢！事后还讲一大堆理由为什么没帮忙！！帮了忙又不会以身相许啦！怕肮脏就怕肮脏啦！讲什么理由！没种还敢跟我埋怨爱情的烦恼！还好我不怕肮脏哩！不然我的水壶就在沟渠里哭泣了！本来是想测试你们一下才比较迟下去捡的，没想到一个两个还真的不是走掉就是等着看戏，在车上还讲出酱不自量力的理由！孬种！

to my unhappy friend E

Just saw my old friend's blog post....
i can feel it...it contain so much sadness, anger, and dissapoint...
I kinda know her situation a little bit...since she is my primary school best friend...
dunno why after i read her post of these few days my heart also feel ache and painful...i wish i was there to comfort her....i want to help her but...i still dunno wat's happening...i oni know tat right now she is very very sad...
if u saw tis, i want u to know, no matter u r with who, no matter wat's the race of u mate, i still wan to bless u two...ur happiness r the most important thing rite? I juz wan u to know sumwhere on tis earth, u still hav a friend to support u :) u r nt alone

兄弟情？

最近，埋在我心中困扰着我的问题终于解开了！多亏了他们啊！哈哈！
他们说我没有女性的气质…就是说我男子气咯！所以说虽然我是女生但又和男生投得来而且又没有尴尬的感觉，是因为和他们在一起时我把自己当成男生又或者他们把我当作男生了！是这样的吗？应该是吧… 唉…想起自己小学时候还每次被那些小弟弟小妹妹叫作“哥哥”的呢…还是我没有女生该有的性格？？（讨厌化妆、不爱穿裙、书包里没有镜子，扇子，梳子、出门不擦防晒油、爱运动爱流汗爱流血？！）
唉…朋友就朋友嘛…想酱多干嘛？真是庸人自扰啊啊！！